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Sunday, October 3, 2010

Who i am...Still a Work in Progress

i am adult
i am little,
i am submissive
i long to be forced, bent, broken and put back together….
i am deviant in desires
Right now in my life I am in control about 99.5 percent of the time.  I have to be, I am an adult, with grown up responsibilities.  I am a manager who works 40 or more hours a week, I am a full time student who spends about 6 usually, but sometimes up to 20 hours a week on school, I am a friend, a pet owner, a sometimes care taker of elderly parents, I am a daughter, a sister, and an aunt 15 times over.  I am a home owner, a bill payer, a yard caretaker, and a car owner.  Sometimes all of these things overwhelm me and I want to be someone else…to not be in control.
i am sometimes little, i wear little things, and do little things and  i long to be loved and cherished as little people are.  I sleep with a stuffed animal, i sometimes suck my thumb, i am cuddly and loving and worshipful…i don’t cry when I’m little because in order to be little, i have to feel safe and secure and loved.
As a submissive i am an adult, a woman, who is sexual and desirous of adult things.  i am devoted to pleasing my partner and think about His needs constantly.  i long to be in a day to day relationship, one that’s filled with everyday things, activities, events, i want to share my life with someone special.
i desire to have someone take over my life in a way that ultimate responsibility is no longer mine.  While i don’t expect to give up my responsibilities, i long for Someone who can lead me, guide me, strengthen me.
Sometimes in a scene there is the pleasure of giving, but sometimes a scene means being forced and being forced to bend makes me struggle, and in the struggle there is a loss of power…or control…
i am deviant.  i yearn for someone who will top me both mentally and physically.  i long to be tied, bound, held in chains, the smell of leather makes me wet, having my wrist held forcefully by someone stronger than me makes my heart race, the clank of chain or the click of a lock makes my senses respond like nothing else can.  To be blindfolded and have someone standing over me, who has taken all of my power way…to trust someone enough to know that they will only go as far as i can handle going.  To feel that crop, sting against tender skin, the slap of a hand, the bite of a whip…i am fearful and desirous of these things…
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Quiz Results: What kind of Little are you?

What kind of Little are you?
Your Result: Princess
 

You are Daddy's little Princess!!!!! Your daddy adores you and spoils you rotten, because you melt him everytime you walk (or crawl) :) into the room!

Angel
 
Brat
 
Schoolgirl
 
Pumpkin
 
What kind of Little are you?
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Submissive
100%
Experimental
71%
Masochist
71%
Degradation Lover
64%
Bondage
64%
Exhibitionist / Voyeur
61%
Switch
39%
Sadist
21%
Vanilla
14%
Dominant
4%
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Daddy Doms by kendra

It had been a while since i'd last read the following article. Many people ask me about bdsm and why i enjoy it...not understanding my desire to be with a Dominant. It is hard to put into words exactly what it's about ... but this article does a wonderful job of explaining it.Daddy/little girl does not refer to the ages, real or pretend, of the participants. Nor does it imply closet desires. In my relationship my Dom is not my father, he is nothing like my father, and I have no need for him to replace my father. He is however my Daddy. We do not engage in age play specifically ( beyond the occasional school girl fantasy *s*) and our relationship is not based on any need to have sex with children. I am always all woman, and always a very independent woman.He does have the ability to make me feel like a little girl, however, a very cherished and sometimes needy little girl. It is a feeling that I revel in, it is the safest place I have ever been, and it allows me the freedom to be all that I am without fear of reprisals. Daddy Dom is a feeling, an environment that two people have created. A Daddy Dom is so named because of the qualities he possesses and the service he provides.So, what are these qualities? What is a Daddy Dom?A Daddy Dom wants to be the center of your universe. He wants to be able to provide for your every need and care. But more than that he wants to be able to shape and mold you to the image he thinks you should become. He sees in you someone who can achieve a much higher, much greater status. He believes more in you than you believe in yourself. What he wants in return is to be able to bask in his image of you, the image he has created. To achieve these goals he relies on a combination of love, respect, and discipline.His love for his little girl goes without saying. He loves her as much for who she is as for who she will become with his guidance. She is his prized possession. His eyes light up when she walks into the room and he takes great pride in her successes. After all, he helped to create her. She holds the most tender part of his heart and has the greatest power to hurt him.This love would not be possible without respect. A Daddy Dom needs to feel pride in his little girl. He needs to know she can hold her own in the outside world and still submit to him. He holds the greatest respect for the gift she has given him and takes great pains to increase it’s value. It is extremely important to him to know she can be with any man and she chooses to be with him.He knows that this makes discipline a priority in their lives, more important than in some other D/s relationships. In order for the little girl to really trust, she must know he means what he says. If his little girl is going to be the best she can possibly be he must stand firm. He uses his experience in life and his knowledge of her to provide proper direction and punishment when the need arises.If he does not enforce discipline, this respect becomes a tenuous thing. If his submissive finds that she can manipulate him out of punishing her, she begins to lose respect and the ability to empower becomes impeded. He understands that it becomes increasingly difficult to be possessed by someone you do not respect.This takes great strength on his part. It takes strength to control her, and to shape her to his needs and desires. It takes strength to be her confidant, her shoulder, her anchor. It takes strength to let her out into the world when all he wants to do is hold her safe in his arms. And it takes strength todo what is necessary when she needs to be disciplined.A Daddy Dom provides something else that is very important to his submissive...acceptance. She is safe in his arms because he knows her, everything about her, and he still loves her. When she goes to him she knows that this man knows all of her dirty little secrets and it doesn’t matter. To him she is beautiful.Daddy Dom and sadistic Dom are by no means mutually exclusive. Many Daddy Doms embrace their sadism while understanding and feeding their submissive's masochism. This balance is necessary to many little girls because it allows all parts of her to be nourished, leading to an incredibly fulfilling relationship.I think most Dominants have a bit of the Daddy in them, taking on the role of male authority figure in the submissive’s life and using their power to enrich that life. Daddy/little girl verbalizes that feeling, and adds a dimension of warmth, caring, and ritual that it’s participants crave.There is something infinitely magical about a Daddy Dom. Perhaps it is something only a little girl can understand.This article may only be reprinted on private, no fee to access websites as long as this notice accompanies it and the following link is in place: http://www.subspace.cc/