Then my ex shared that the girlfriend had brought her cat with her and it was living in one room of the house. i thought about the fur pulling and decided it must have a lot to do with the changes happening. i emailed my ex and said i was worried. His response was threatening and negative, calling me names etc. i fell into his trap and engaged in his conversation, despite it's ridiculous nature. Also, despite his assurance that he was most concerned with skooter and i...he resorted to calling me stupid and threatened to get a lawyer.
At that time several people suggested i keep skooter and let my ex spend the money to get a lawyer, if he could find a lawyer that would even take the case, then let the judge set the rules (since the ex was breaking any rules he'd already made) then the law would uphold the rules and we'd both have to follow them.
Up until the day to let skooter go with him i debated, but then in my trusting way and because i never had the intent to keep him to begin with, i handed skooter over to my ex...
The next two weeks passed slowly, i was fearful that he wouldn't give me skooter back. He almost didn't after an afternoon of emailing where i begged and pleaded for him to let me have him, he made me promise to be available for him to pick up skooter, at his convenience (which means my taking time off of work to meet him or give him access to my house...believe me...those things don't make one's Sir happy...nor should they.)
That should of been the last draw...i was furious...everyone said jen, he's going to hurt you...keep the cat! i honestly thought about it...but then i thought...number 1: no...skooter loves him...i don't want to deprive skooter of him...number 2: why would i want to hurt him...taking skooter from him would only cause heartache and pain...and while i'd love to have skooter full time...i want to be fair....and 3: surely he'll come to realize that as another man's slave, he can't continue to control my life like he was trying to do. That he would know how much i love skooter too and not try to hurt me or skooter who loves me in return...and he would realize that in any custody battle, it's not about what's convenient for us, rather it's about what is fair and most importantly it's about what is best for skooter.
i had faith in him that he would still be the decent person i've always believed him to be despite everything.
His text to me when i asked if i could pick up skooter tonight between 5 and 5:30 said "No, given the way our friendship has deteriorated vs strengthend and how happy Skooter is at Home, (using the word "home" is terminology he's just recently started using since he's felt threatened) He's going to stay Home from now on......."
i was planning on spending a quiet Christmas home alone with skooter, i'd just decorated the tree and wrapped his presents last night so when i picked him up tonight everything would be ready for our two weeks together....Now i just want to put it all away...i just don't understand life sometimes...
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| Every year I took the dreaded Christmas photo of Skooter. He hated it, but was always a good sport. Sorry I humiliated you one more time bud...this was the last photo I took of my little fur Dom. Santa Skooter |
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| I was getting ready for work one morning and Skooter was watching me...he was honestly my best friend for the last two years! keeping me company every lonely moment he was here. |
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| I love this picture of my boy...isn't he so handsome here? And so incharge! |
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| It was a long couple years moving here, sharing him every two weeks with the ex...so many car rides home with him I cried because I was worried about who the sharing him thing might be detrimental to him...yet he was happy and it seemed to work. I don't know if it was the best thing for him...but he was always so happy when he was here. |
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| He was always a good sport for anything I threw at him. So handsome, and making those flowers in the background look good too! He loved helping me garden... |
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| This face was the one i loved waking up to in the mornings! |
I'm so heartsick that you aren't here right now buddy. We've been through so much and now you've been stolen from me. i want the best for you...I know you'll be well cared for...please don't think i've abandoned you...what has happened is beyond my control. Your other "person" has decided to keep you from me. i believe he wants you to be happy buddy and i know that i want you to be also.
i love you little guy with all my heart and i'll think of you every single day. Be nice to the new girl and she'll be your ally. Granny will take lots of pics of you for me and watch over you so please smile lots when she shows up with the camera and most of all....be happy!
Love you my little fur Dom,
baby
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