Generally I don't cross post anything I've written in other places
, but something made me want to write tonight in my Fetlife journal and when it was done, it seemed appropriate to post it here too, so.....my apologies to anyone who actually might read my thoughts in both places....
My heart has this incredible capacity for forgiveness. It's not something that happens in every situation, but for the right person, my heart seems to have an eraser that wipes clean every speck of hurt or torment that gets thrown at it. Maybe that's how things are supposed to work actually... and it probably isn't even a unique trait in most submissives.
i don't know if it's a good trait or not. In the past it's allowed me to find myself in difficult and quite possibly not the healthiest of relationships.
But, I do believe that there can be a healthy in the right D/s relationship. It's probably like any relationship, it just takes the right combination or compatibility for the D and s to become what i imagine a D/s relationship can be.
I thought i was there in the past. I would like to think i can be there one day in the future.
i have learned most importantly that i am who i am, i can't be anyone else. i might admire someone for what they are able to offer or strive to be more of this or that, but ultimately.....i am me and I'm going to have to work with who i am...and hopefully who i am will be compatible with Someone else's who they are.... :-)
