“Go forward in life with a twinkle in your eye and a smile on your face, but with great purpose in heart.” ― Gordon B. Hinckley

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Busy Weekend


So the weekend was packed with so many things to blog about.  I don't even know where to begin.  Daddy and i talked of so many things.  One of the things i love about Him is how He makes me think.  i really miss Him after He leaves, yet there is also this sense of contentment that He leaves behind...i think it's a matter of knowing that it's finally time to relax and know that i've been found by the owner of my heart...it feels safe...

He will be there to take care of me and ensure that life will be good, if i give my all to Him...

W/we had a moment Saturday.  i messed something up, and then freaked out over His response.  i guess i was waiting for the worst to happen.  It didn't.  He took the time to show me that it's not about making life so impossible, it's about working together to ensure that things come together as they should.  If i didn't know i loved Him already, that incident would have told me that He was definitely so worth it.

He is so smart. i am amazed at times when He tells me things about His life.  One thing i am learning also is to not to doubt His knowledge and abilities.  i've lost more than a couple of times when it came to spelling or word definitions, and English isn't even His first language.

So two things i've come away from the weekend with are first - no more doubtful comments, even if it's just a habit to make comments about trust...  It's time to let it go.  No more teasing, no more disrespect, no more letting the past affect the present.
The other thing is how amazing W/we are together.  While the situations have not always been perfect for U/us, W/we still seem to always be "on the same page."  At one point Daddy said to me, it's like W/we've been together for 20 years.  It does feel that way.  When W/we set up camp it was easy and smooth, the same when W/we took it down. i'm sure there is room for improvement, but i think overall Daddy was as pleased as i was.

He's asked me to start keeping some thoughts about a specific assignment for O/our future in mind, and i'm doing this.  He talked about it being the next level in O/our relationship and i understand how this specific thing would be a symbolic gesture on my part and proof of His committment on His.  it is something i've always wanted, but it's also something i am not 100% sure i'm ready for, but then that could just be due to nervousness.  What i really want right now is to feel "settled" and not in limbo...i think W/we are moving that direction, but ultimately it's going to take some time.  i do know that it's an ongoing quest and something i should be aware of and aiming for.  I guess for me though right now the priority is finding a permanent place in Daddy's life, one that requires full service as His slave, one that allows me to meet His needs and expectations every day.  LOL...so i write these thoughts here, knowing Daddy, in His infinite wisdom will help me sort this out....The analogy i'd come up with at this point is....He and i are the cake batter...we're still in the mixing process, there is still the baking and cooling steps, and then....comes the frosting on top.  i kind of see the quest He's given me as the frosting on top.

And that was just a small portion of the time W/we spent together.  i think i have lots to write in my blog this week ;-)

jennie

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Quiz Results: What kind of Little are you?

What kind of Little are you?
Your Result: Princess
 

You are Daddy's little Princess!!!!! Your daddy adores you and spoils you rotten, because you melt him everytime you walk (or crawl) :) into the room!

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Submissive
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Experimental
71%
Masochist
71%
Degradation Lover
64%
Bondage
64%
Exhibitionist / Voyeur
61%
Switch
39%
Sadist
21%
Vanilla
14%
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Daddy Doms by kendra

It had been a while since i'd last read the following article. Many people ask me about bdsm and why i enjoy it...not understanding my desire to be with a Dominant. It is hard to put into words exactly what it's about ... but this article does a wonderful job of explaining it.Daddy/little girl does not refer to the ages, real or pretend, of the participants. Nor does it imply closet desires. In my relationship my Dom is not my father, he is nothing like my father, and I have no need for him to replace my father. He is however my Daddy. We do not engage in age play specifically ( beyond the occasional school girl fantasy *s*) and our relationship is not based on any need to have sex with children. I am always all woman, and always a very independent woman.He does have the ability to make me feel like a little girl, however, a very cherished and sometimes needy little girl. It is a feeling that I revel in, it is the safest place I have ever been, and it allows me the freedom to be all that I am without fear of reprisals. Daddy Dom is a feeling, an environment that two people have created. A Daddy Dom is so named because of the qualities he possesses and the service he provides.So, what are these qualities? What is a Daddy Dom?A Daddy Dom wants to be the center of your universe. He wants to be able to provide for your every need and care. But more than that he wants to be able to shape and mold you to the image he thinks you should become. He sees in you someone who can achieve a much higher, much greater status. He believes more in you than you believe in yourself. What he wants in return is to be able to bask in his image of you, the image he has created. To achieve these goals he relies on a combination of love, respect, and discipline.His love for his little girl goes without saying. He loves her as much for who she is as for who she will become with his guidance. She is his prized possession. His eyes light up when she walks into the room and he takes great pride in her successes. After all, he helped to create her. She holds the most tender part of his heart and has the greatest power to hurt him.This love would not be possible without respect. A Daddy Dom needs to feel pride in his little girl. He needs to know she can hold her own in the outside world and still submit to him. He holds the greatest respect for the gift she has given him and takes great pains to increase it’s value. It is extremely important to him to know she can be with any man and she chooses to be with him.He knows that this makes discipline a priority in their lives, more important than in some other D/s relationships. In order for the little girl to really trust, she must know he means what he says. If his little girl is going to be the best she can possibly be he must stand firm. He uses his experience in life and his knowledge of her to provide proper direction and punishment when the need arises.If he does not enforce discipline, this respect becomes a tenuous thing. If his submissive finds that she can manipulate him out of punishing her, she begins to lose respect and the ability to empower becomes impeded. He understands that it becomes increasingly difficult to be possessed by someone you do not respect.This takes great strength on his part. It takes strength to control her, and to shape her to his needs and desires. It takes strength to be her confidant, her shoulder, her anchor. It takes strength to let her out into the world when all he wants to do is hold her safe in his arms. And it takes strength todo what is necessary when she needs to be disciplined.A Daddy Dom provides something else that is very important to his submissive...acceptance. She is safe in his arms because he knows her, everything about her, and he still loves her. When she goes to him she knows that this man knows all of her dirty little secrets and it doesn’t matter. To him she is beautiful.Daddy Dom and sadistic Dom are by no means mutually exclusive. Many Daddy Doms embrace their sadism while understanding and feeding their submissive's masochism. This balance is necessary to many little girls because it allows all parts of her to be nourished, leading to an incredibly fulfilling relationship.I think most Dominants have a bit of the Daddy in them, taking on the role of male authority figure in the submissive’s life and using their power to enrich that life. Daddy/little girl verbalizes that feeling, and adds a dimension of warmth, caring, and ritual that it’s participants crave.There is something infinitely magical about a Daddy Dom. Perhaps it is something only a little girl can understand.This article may only be reprinted on private, no fee to access websites as long as this notice accompanies it and the following link is in place: http://www.subspace.cc/