Daddy spoiled me and made breakfast for me today...yummy!
Of course He treated me to a few other yummy experiences too!
Today W/we had a long talk about a few things. i did a lot of listening, and while some of the listening was hard for me to do or hear, i couldn't help but think about what kind of Man has power over my life.
He's fair and smart and sensible and loving and careful and capable and i'm sure many many more things that i have yet to learn.
Oh......and He looks really hot in that Kangol hat of His.
Now i need to make sure i please Him, because when i offered myself to Him that first day...i did so with the hope that this would be for a lifetime...and so far that desire has only grown in depth and emotion.
So today i come away with two things to focus my thoughts and efforts on.
1. Follow Daddy's rules of "engagement."
and
2. Remember that to hold Daddy's heart, it is the actions of a slave He desires, not the cocky humor of a "toppy" submissive.
So the rules of "engagement" will be easy and i'll follow these without struggle.
The protocol and attitude or actions that go with becoming more slave like are about breaking habit and making changes, this will be harder to accomplish but i don't think impossible. It's not impossible because i know that Daddy expects it and i truly do have the desire to please Him. (and i also know He'll work with me and help me.) It begins with breaking down that wall that i started building at age 16 when i realized i had more to give to a man then he was able to recieve. Living in the vanilla world, i learned to bury all i had to offer underneath humor and bravado.
Since finding the lifestyle community i've fought this "toppy" behavior, recognizing my role as a submissive, yet no one has ever expected me to completely submit in attitude, so i've not taken up that challenge. It's hard to let the walls down, to be vulnerable at all times, to let go of this one last defense against being completely owned.
Yet.....isn't being completely owned what i truely want?
answer....
Yes it is.









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