One of my favorite things about him was his creativity.
At the beginning of the relationship i jokingly said to him that it was traditional to send flowers on ones 3(?) month anniversary, this evolved into a a token gift each month on our anniversary. It was sometimes hard, sometimes easy to pick up some little thing to give to one another. Once in a while it was something bigger that the other had mentioned they needed or maybe it was something frivoulous we knew the other wanted. There were no written rules or expectations, but there was always something.
One of the most cherished things he gave me was a music box. It wasn't big, and it wasn't even music we specifically would have chosen, but he'd picked it up somewhere and decoupaged a photo of the two of us onto it. Nice...but the really special part of that music box was that whenever He put me to bed, if i was sick, or just laying down for a nap, or when He left for work at 4 am in the morning and came to tell me goodbye and to have a good day, He'd kiss me and wind the music box. i learned to fall asleep quickly to it's tinkling sound. There was something always reassuring about it. It made me feel so safe.
When our relationship ended, the sound of that little music box about tore me apart if i played it, yet, i'd become so accostumed to falling asleep to it, i could barely sleep without it.
So......i thought and thought about how to replace it...i thought about another music box, but it lacked in sentimentality, my purchasing it myself.
i've loved Natlalie Merchant's version of "Come Take A Trip On My Airship" ever since i heard it years and years ago while working in a child care. i'd bought the "For the Children too" cassette and fell in love with her voice and the words to this old tune. So, i downloaded it to my phone and now each night i play it as i lay in bed trying to sleep. Sometimes i mix it up with Dean singing Brahm's Lullabye, or Goodnite by Melodie Gardot but Natalie is definitely my favorite.
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